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May. 6th, 2008 | 09:46 pm
location: The dark bowels of Chemistry
mood: 
rushed
music: Rurouni Kenshin OST - Haiiro no Tenshi
I've been oddly occupied by the strangest things lately. I guess what really makes them strange is the fact that they're not the ones I'm usually occupied with. The effect of Chem 14, perchance?
OCCUPANCY!1 - Guilty Gear Series.
I've started taking out my anger on button-mashing fighting games - or at least, the ones on my PC - and found that out of all of them, Guilty Gear X has piqued my interest the most. So I've started to do some bit of reading on it and the rest of the series, and I find that I quite like everything about it - from the character design to the musical references.
My favorite character would have to be Jam Kuradoberi, which just speaks about my preference for Chinese or Chinese-based characters. When I looked up her character description, though, I was less than impressed - I thought it was a very shallow take on her. "Annoying, conceited, self-centered, and every bit of a sore loser." Hah. I'm sure she's more than that. And judging from how her story ended in Guilty Gear XX, it wasn't at all like that. Hmmm. Maybe because the description came from her Guilty Gear X self (which was set before Guilty Gear XX). Or maybe I'm just biased.
Coupled with my sudden temporary obsession with Guilty Gear is my interest in the Jam Kuradoberi/Ky Kiske. Jam's ending in Guilty Gear XX heavily hinted at that (as they went on a picnic date together) and the fact that they've sort-of flirted with each other in Guilty Gear X. In a Jam vs Ky match, if Jam wins, she asks if there are any strong, attractive young men around to "carry [her]," while if Ky wins, he accidentally lets it slip that his eyes "tend[ed] to wander," as Jam's attacks are primarily composed of high kicks made with a very short skirt.
But what makes me so disappointed is that in an XBox incarnation of the game (Guilty Gear 2: Overture, I think, it was called), Ky is portrayed to have married someone, it's not likely it's Jam - it's more heavily hinted to be Dizzy. Sigh~ I guess I'll just have to resort to thinking that this XBox incarnation does not exist at all. Jam/Ky is just that cute.
Why are the Guilty Gear creators so against Jam anyway?!?! @#*$*(%!!!
...
OCCUPANCY!2 - Prince of Tennis.
Bit by bit, I've come to know the stuff that happens before the National Tournament in the PoT series. Not that I have time to do it, so it's been coming in trickles.
So now I kind of get who the Tachibana siblings are, and who that Atobe guy really is. There are a few whom I still don't get, but once I have time, I'll watch a marathon of it.
And in the meantime, the only thing I really have time for are RyomaSakuno fanfics. Who knew there was a plethora of awesome RyoSaku fanfiction? Obviously, it's not as many as the SasukeSakura fanfiction collection, but it's still a sizable amount. Ryoma is particularly fun to read (and to write, now that I'm sort of trying my hand at RyoSaku as well), because there are various ways to interpret him, and he's not an "absolute" character. What I mean is, he's not the cold-hearted bastard or the dense 12-year-old all the time - there are times when he's adorably clueless at some point but knowledgeable in another, or cold-but-not-quite. I can't quite explain it. I guess my mind is comparing Ryoma to Sasuke, and I'm finding out that they're not exactly comparable.
And Sakuno. GAH. She is adorable. She's the stereotypical shy girl, yes, but she's the cutest I've seen so far. But perhaps what really endears me to her is the fact that she has a camaraderie with Ryoma that goes beyond the typical boy-meets-shy-girl-and-shy-girl-faints scenario. I mean, Ryoma actually teases her and she takes it in stride.
I guess what I really love about the two of them and their relationship is that it's unusual in a number of ways.
[Eyecatch! Anyone notice how the only thing I manage to talk about is pairingdom? XP]
OCCUPANCY!3 - Bishoujo pics + shoujo manga.
I keep complaining about Chem eating into my time, but really, it's drawing Pretty Girl Pics that's eating into my supposedly Chem-exclusive time. That, and all these high school shoujo manga romance stuff I've been reading. Those two really are a force to be reckoned with - they form a vicious cycle. I see beautifully drawn shoujo manga (not minding the mediocre, stereotypical plotlines, because seriously, they've grown on me), I get the urge to practice drawing to reach CLAMP-detailing status, then I read shoujo manga again to brush up on references.
I'm supposed to be studying molarity and stoichiometry, DAMMIT! T______________T
But I can't resist the lure of my PC Tablet and Photoshop. GAH.
And throughout this whole process, I've noticed twohighly insignificant but I'll tell you anyway things. One - shoujo manga is nearly always about a cool guy and a klutzy girl. It's a sure-fire formula - even I, as a girl, cannot resist imagining myself in the place of the Awkward Heroine. Two - DeviantArt is a popularity contest. Only established artists/fanartists seem to get any views or comments. And fanworks literally dominate the scene - no one seems to take a second look at non-fanart anime drawings. Maybe I'm bitter for not getting any attention, but hey - I'm posting at DeviantArt to draw attention to my art. But the only people who ever look at it are my friends IRL and a couple of other supporters.
OCCUPANCY!4 - Finding a house and a new roommate.
On non-fantasy-related news, one of my roommates has left us to transfer schools (TT___TT We were together for a really long time, and I'm not even allowed to contact her now), so there's only a couple of us left (not including the roommate we never talk to because she is hella scary) to find a new house. We wouldn't have had to worry about this if we weren't getting kicked out of the house in the first place.
The people letting us live here are only renting the apartment from a higher power, see. (Basically, we've been renting from rentees.) Then the higher power decided to up the rent to an unreasonable price. I guess none of us would have thought the price unreasonable if the house wasn't in its current state - 50% rotting wood, unvarnished wooden floors on the 2nd level, miscellaneous irreparable stuff, and creatures of the night to boot. So the rentees from whom we rent decided to move out, and unfortunately, they can't take us with them.
So we had to find a house near the school's vicinity, and we found one, but it's a little too expensive for just the two of us. We've put down a reservation for a nice room recently, but I have two problems with it - the cost (if it's just the two of us) and the cramped living space (if there's three of us). I have LOTS of stuff, seeing as I only ever get to go home every 5 months, and right now I take 50% of the current room. The new room is a little smaller and has no big closets for my stuff, so I can just imagine how three (THREE!!!) of us are going to fit in the new room.
I wish we didn't need a third roommate. It's a headache for Thea, my roommate right now, and double the headache for me. And the fact is, we can't find a third roommate, which we don't want but desperately need. GMARGH.
...
And now, I just consumed the time I should've spent to make 3 Chem Lab reports.
*dash*
OCCUPANCY!1 - Guilty Gear Series.
I've started taking out my anger on button-mashing fighting games - or at least, the ones on my PC - and found that out of all of them, Guilty Gear X has piqued my interest the most. So I've started to do some bit of reading on it and the rest of the series, and I find that I quite like everything about it - from the character design to the musical references.
My favorite character would have to be Jam Kuradoberi, which just speaks about my preference for Chinese or Chinese-based characters. When I looked up her character description, though, I was less than impressed - I thought it was a very shallow take on her. "Annoying, conceited, self-centered, and every bit of a sore loser." Hah. I'm sure she's more than that. And judging from how her story ended in Guilty Gear XX, it wasn't at all like that. Hmmm. Maybe because the description came from her Guilty Gear X self (which was set before Guilty Gear XX). Or maybe I'm just biased.
Coupled with my sudden temporary obsession with Guilty Gear is my interest in the Jam Kuradoberi/Ky Kiske. Jam's ending in Guilty Gear XX heavily hinted at that (as they went on a picnic date together) and the fact that they've sort-of flirted with each other in Guilty Gear X. In a Jam vs Ky match, if Jam wins, she asks if there are any strong, attractive young men around to "carry [her]," while if Ky wins, he accidentally lets it slip that his eyes "tend[ed] to wander," as Jam's attacks are primarily composed of high kicks made with a very short skirt.
But what makes me so disappointed is that in an XBox incarnation of the game (Guilty Gear 2: Overture, I think, it was called), Ky is portrayed to have married someone, it's not likely it's Jam - it's more heavily hinted to be Dizzy. Sigh~ I guess I'll just have to resort to thinking that this XBox incarnation does not exist at all. Jam/Ky is just that cute.
Why are the Guilty Gear creators so against Jam anyway?!?! @#*$*(%!!!
...
OCCUPANCY!2 - Prince of Tennis.
Bit by bit, I've come to know the stuff that happens before the National Tournament in the PoT series. Not that I have time to do it, so it's been coming in trickles.
So now I kind of get who the Tachibana siblings are, and who that Atobe guy really is. There are a few whom I still don't get, but once I have time, I'll watch a marathon of it.
And in the meantime, the only thing I really have time for are RyomaSakuno fanfics. Who knew there was a plethora of awesome RyoSaku fanfiction? Obviously, it's not as many as the SasukeSakura fanfiction collection, but it's still a sizable amount. Ryoma is particularly fun to read (and to write, now that I'm sort of trying my hand at RyoSaku as well), because there are various ways to interpret him, and he's not an "absolute" character. What I mean is, he's not the cold-hearted bastard or the dense 12-year-old all the time - there are times when he's adorably clueless at some point but knowledgeable in another, or cold-but-not-quite. I can't quite explain it. I guess my mind is comparing Ryoma to Sasuke, and I'm finding out that they're not exactly comparable.
And Sakuno. GAH. She is adorable. She's the stereotypical shy girl, yes, but she's the cutest I've seen so far. But perhaps what really endears me to her is the fact that she has a camaraderie with Ryoma that goes beyond the typical boy-meets-shy-girl-and-shy-girl-faints scenario. I mean, Ryoma actually teases her and she takes it in stride.
I guess what I really love about the two of them and their relationship is that it's unusual in a number of ways.
[Eyecatch! Anyone notice how the only thing I manage to talk about is pairingdom? XP]
OCCUPANCY!3 - Bishoujo pics + shoujo manga.
I keep complaining about Chem eating into my time, but really, it's drawing Pretty Girl Pics that's eating into my supposedly Chem-exclusive time. That, and all these high school shoujo manga romance stuff I've been reading. Those two really are a force to be reckoned with - they form a vicious cycle. I see beautifully drawn shoujo manga (not minding the mediocre, stereotypical plotlines, because seriously, they've grown on me), I get the urge to practice drawing to reach CLAMP-detailing status, then I read shoujo manga again to brush up on references.
I'm supposed to be studying molarity and stoichiometry, DAMMIT! T______________T
But I can't resist the lure of my PC Tablet and Photoshop. GAH.
And throughout this whole process, I've noticed two
OCCUPANCY!4 - Finding a house and a new roommate.
On non-fantasy-related news, one of my roommates has left us to transfer schools (TT___TT We were together for a really long time, and I'm not even allowed to contact her now), so there's only a couple of us left (not including the roommate we never talk to because she is hella scary) to find a new house. We wouldn't have had to worry about this if we weren't getting kicked out of the house in the first place.
The people letting us live here are only renting the apartment from a higher power, see. (Basically, we've been renting from rentees.) Then the higher power decided to up the rent to an unreasonable price. I guess none of us would have thought the price unreasonable if the house wasn't in its current state - 50% rotting wood, unvarnished wooden floors on the 2nd level, miscellaneous irreparable stuff, and creatures of the night to boot. So the rentees from whom we rent decided to move out, and unfortunately, they can't take us with them.
So we had to find a house near the school's vicinity, and we found one, but it's a little too expensive for just the two of us. We've put down a reservation for a nice room recently, but I have two problems with it - the cost (if it's just the two of us) and the cramped living space (if there's three of us). I have LOTS of stuff, seeing as I only ever get to go home every 5 months, and right now I take 50% of the current room. The new room is a little smaller and has no big closets for my stuff, so I can just imagine how three (THREE!!!) of us are going to fit in the new room.
I wish we didn't need a third roommate. It's a headache for Thea, my roommate right now, and double the headache for me. And the fact is, we can't find a third roommate, which we don't want but desperately need. GMARGH.
...
And now, I just consumed the time I should've spent to make 3 Chem Lab reports.
*dash*
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Gmmnnyah!
Apr. 3rd, 2008 | 01:16 pm
mood: 
busy
music: SATOMI' - Mr. Fool
So summer's finally come!
But sadly for me, I have to compress all my extracurricular summer stuff into less than two weeks.
That means, in two weeks, I should have been able to:
x-x Fix our room (buy new trays and plastic shelves, sweep the floor, redesign closet)
x-x Catch up on certain shows (Shakugan no Shana 1 and 2, One Tree Hill S5, La Corda D'Oro ~ Primo Passo)
x-x Watch the summer movies (whatever's on, but Prince Caspian and Horton Hears A Who top my list)
x-x Make manga for the Art Arena Ten Paces Contest (a collab among me and my friends)
x-x Finish certain fanworks, which means:
------> divesting my InProgress Folder of half-finished fanart
------> finish at least two chapters of my TWTBS
------> start drawing panels for a certain doujinshi I'm working on
x-x Read my best friend's Chemistry module (so I can be ahead on my Chem summer classes, because I royally suck at anything that involves Math)
x-x Open my Art Shop in Gaia
x-x Figure out my April budget
x-x Shop for stuff that'll make our room/my wardrobe look better.
Gah. GAH.
...
On a brighter note, I passed the three subjects I thought I might fail in - Bio 115, Math 17, and Soc Sci 1. I know - who fails Soc Sci 1? Apparently, me. Nearly. I basically skated on thin ice with SS1 because I was always late/absent. I think I deserve the just barely passing grade.
Math 17... well, I ended up dancing in the hallway (I know - it must've been weird to see a 110-lb bag of fat dance in a dimly lit corridor) when I found that I ALSO barely passed it. See, I needed to get 68.29% in my finals just to pass it. I ended up getting a 68.00, which put my final grade at 59.9%. I needed a flat 60% to pass the course. Were it any other day, I would've had to take the removal exams, but my prof decided to be merciful and give me that passing grade. Hell YEAH.
Bio 115 was a surprise to me - I was praying for a certain grade (not just passing, mind you) but I got a grade higher than that All that effort in my projects, and in the exams paid off. I love love LOVE begonia now. Hahahaaa. But seriously. Taxonomy was a lot of fun and I'd love to have another class like that. Unfortunately, I won't - that's the last I'll be seeing of Taxonomy for now, unless I make like my Taxo prof and become a Taxonomist myself.
I have yet to hear from my other teachers, but I'm content for now. I hope I don't get lazy like this ever again. I want my average to get higher because I want to shift courses, and I won't be able to with the average I have now. So it's off to get a nice grade in my Chem and Philo classes this summer. Chyeah.
...
I shouldn't waste time anymore. *sigh*
But sadly for me, I have to compress all my extracurricular summer stuff into less than two weeks.
That means, in two weeks, I should have been able to:
x-x Fix our room (buy new trays and plastic shelves, sweep the floor, redesign closet)
x-x Catch up on certain shows (Shakugan no Shana 1 and 2, One Tree Hill S5, La Corda D'Oro ~ Primo Passo)
x-x Watch the summer movies (whatever's on, but Prince Caspian and Horton Hears A Who top my list)
x-x Make manga for the Art Arena Ten Paces Contest (a collab among me and my friends)
x-x Finish certain fanworks, which means:
------> divesting my InProgress Folder of half-finished fanart
------> finish at least two chapters of my TWTBS
------> start drawing panels for a certain doujinshi I'm working on
x-x Read my best friend's Chemistry module (so I can be ahead on my Chem summer classes, because I royally suck at anything that involves Math)
x-x Open my Art Shop in Gaia
x-x Figure out my April budget
x-x Shop for stuff that'll make our room/my wardrobe look better.
Gah. GAH.
...
On a brighter note, I passed the three subjects I thought I might fail in - Bio 115, Math 17, and Soc Sci 1. I know - who fails Soc Sci 1? Apparently, me. Nearly. I basically skated on thin ice with SS1 because I was always late/absent. I think I deserve the just barely passing grade.
Math 17... well, I ended up dancing in the hallway (I know - it must've been weird to see a 110-lb bag of fat dance in a dimly lit corridor) when I found that I ALSO barely passed it. See, I needed to get 68.29% in my finals just to pass it. I ended up getting a 68.00, which put my final grade at 59.9%. I needed a flat 60% to pass the course. Were it any other day, I would've had to take the removal exams, but my prof decided to be merciful and give me that passing grade. Hell YEAH.
Bio 115 was a surprise to me - I was praying for a certain grade (not just passing, mind you) but I got a grade higher than that All that effort in my projects, and in the exams paid off. I love love LOVE begonia now. Hahahaaa. But seriously. Taxonomy was a lot of fun and I'd love to have another class like that. Unfortunately, I won't - that's the last I'll be seeing of Taxonomy for now, unless I make like my Taxo prof and become a Taxonomist myself.
I have yet to hear from my other teachers, but I'm content for now. I hope I don't get lazy like this ever again. I want my average to get higher because I want to shift courses, and I won't be able to with the average I have now. So it's off to get a nice grade in my Chem and Philo classes this summer. Chyeah.
...
I shouldn't waste time anymore. *sigh*
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T___T
Mar. 2nd, 2008 | 12:08 pm
mood: 
sad
music: OLIVIA - solarhalfbreed
Prince of Tennis, after 379 chapters of Ochibi hawtness, is finally over.
I didn't exactly follow the story until later in the series, and I only managed to catch up to the story by reading summaries and Wikipedia profiles of the characters. Nor am I obsessed with it.
So why am I so sad?
I think it may be because I was rooting for Sakuno to snag Ryoma in the end. But that idiot Ryoma just HAD to go back to the US and bully older kids into letting him beat them at tennis! Oh, come on - they were so very nearly a couple! Sakuno understood Ryoma in some ways that others didn't, and I thought that was very sweet.
Ah, well, there's fanfiction.
But STILL. Nothing beats the manga canon.
There had better be a 10 years after sort of thing for RyoSaku, or I swear I'll bang my head on metal spikes. (Okay, not really - I'll only do that if SasuSaku doesn't happen.)
I didn't exactly follow the story until later in the series, and I only managed to catch up to the story by reading summaries and Wikipedia profiles of the characters. Nor am I obsessed with it.
So why am I so sad?
I think it may be because I was rooting for Sakuno to snag Ryoma in the end. But that idiot Ryoma just HAD to go back to the US and bully older kids into letting him beat them at tennis! Oh, come on - they were so very nearly a couple! Sakuno understood Ryoma in some ways that others didn't, and I thought that was very sweet.
Ah, well, there's fanfiction.
But STILL. Nothing beats the manga canon.
There had better be a 10 years after sort of thing for RyoSaku, or I swear I'll bang my head on metal spikes. (Okay, not really - I'll only do that if SasuSaku doesn't happen.)
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Feb. 12th, 2008 | 06:52 pm
mood: 
confused
music: Distance by Long-Shot Party
So I'm going crazy over making fanart for Valentines. SasuSaku, of course. Then I realize I have a Math (MATH! *dies*) Exam on the 15th. What a bummer.
But I'll persevere. If I spend all my free time alternating between studying and making the fanart... I might be able to make everything on time. Yuss. That's what I'm going to do. Hella yeah!
What I found out about myself during my Psych 10 class:
1) I happen to have a low - and I mean low - Emotional Quotient. 45. And the average EQ is supposed to be 76-109.
2) I am rather average with my Self-Awareness and my Mood Moderation. (Average!? I couldn't even get a high in at least one criterion for EQ?!)
3) I have absolutely nada Empathy, Self-Motivation, and Social Competence.
...
*shudder* I am a deficient person.
On the bright side, Tickle.com says in their Ph.D certified IQ test:
...
Congratulations, Nyca!
Your IQ score is 133.
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others — and at anticipating and predicting patterns. And that's just some of what we know about you from your IQ results.
...
I do not know what to think about this. All I know is that:
1) When I took an IQ test when I was 14, I got 136, and in that test's scale, I was "Above Average." This may only mean two things - one, the two IQ tests are not standardized (which is odd), and two, my IQ went down 3 points in the past 3 years (meaning I went down 1 point every year). The first assumption seems more accurate, though.
(I DO hope it's the first assumption - I'd die if I found out my IQ's getting lower by one point per year. Meaning by the time I'm 70, my IQ would be 66, which means I'm mentally retarded.)
2) I don't think that I have "exceptional math and verbal skills," as this result puts it. First of all, my math skills are non-existent. Second of all, I stutter when I speak because I think too fast and cannot express all those thoughts at once, to the point that I forget what I'm supposed to be talking about.
3) In the past few months, I have NOT been feeling "highly intelligent." Hey, if I were highly intelligent, I would've passed Math 17 (College Algebra and Trigonometry) on the first try, don't you think?
4) It's looking as if the theory of EQ being inversely proportional to IQ is true. T__________T
5) Yay yay yay yay I'm smart! (Supposedly...?)
But I'll persevere. If I spend all my free time alternating between studying and making the fanart... I might be able to make everything on time. Yuss. That's what I'm going to do. Hella yeah!
What I found out about myself during my Psych 10 class:
1) I happen to have a low - and I mean low - Emotional Quotient. 45. And the average EQ is supposed to be 76-109.
2) I am rather average with my Self-Awareness and my Mood Moderation. (Average!? I couldn't even get a high in at least one criterion for EQ?!)
3) I have absolutely nada Empathy, Self-Motivation, and Social Competence.
...
*shudder* I am a deficient person.
On the bright side, Tickle.com says in their Ph.D certified IQ test:
...
Congratulations, Nyca!
Your IQ score is 133.
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others — and at anticipating and predicting patterns. And that's just some of what we know about you from your IQ results.
...
I do not know what to think about this. All I know is that:
1) When I took an IQ test when I was 14, I got 136, and in that test's scale, I was "Above Average." This may only mean two things - one, the two IQ tests are not standardized (which is odd), and two, my IQ went down 3 points in the past 3 years (meaning I went down 1 point every year). The first assumption seems more accurate, though.
(I DO hope it's the first assumption - I'd die if I found out my IQ's getting lower by one point per year. Meaning by the time I'm 70, my IQ would be 66, which means I'm mentally retarded.)
2) I don't think that I have "exceptional math and verbal skills," as this result puts it. First of all, my math skills are non-existent. Second of all, I stutter when I speak because I think too fast and cannot express all those thoughts at once, to the point that I forget what I'm supposed to be talking about.
3) In the past few months, I have NOT been feeling "highly intelligent." Hey, if I were highly intelligent, I would've passed Math 17 (College Algebra and Trigonometry) on the first try, don't you think?
4) It's looking as if the theory of EQ being inversely proportional to IQ is true. T__________T
5) Yay yay yay yay I'm smart! (Supposedly...?)
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Poo.
Feb. 3rd, 2008 | 11:30 pm
mood: 
cranky
music: Motteke Sera Fuku - Lucky Star OST
When was the last time I felt truly happy?
I'm certain it hasn't been in the last few days. The last few days have sucked so far - not even getting reviews for my fanfic is making me happy. Okay, it gives me a certain amount of momentary joy, but strangely, it wears off pretty quickly. Usually the euphoria of getting reviews is enough to make me want to dance, but right now it just doesn't give me that kind of giddiness.
Maybe it's because I have three painful and rather ugly rope burns on my left hand. Maybe it's because of all that laundry I'm going to have to handwash with aforementioned left hand (in conjunction with my right, obviously). Maybe it's because of that hacking cough that has developed into something mucus-filled.
My annoyance with the world has gotten so bad that not even buying a Mocha Frap and a huge slice of cake from good ol' Starbucks is making me happy. In fact, it only served to guilt me into thinking I'm getting fat again. Why can't I even enjoy that delicious slice of life?!?
I want to be a happy child again. Okay, scratch that - I don't even have to be a child. Being happy will do. I'll take anything. (Anything that won't require tranquilizers, hallucinogens, or alcohol, at least.)
ARGH. I just want to stop with these angst-filled rants. It's just not me.
...
Britney Spears, I can almost feel your pain.
I'm certain it hasn't been in the last few days. The last few days have sucked so far - not even getting reviews for my fanfic is making me happy. Okay, it gives me a certain amount of momentary joy, but strangely, it wears off pretty quickly. Usually the euphoria of getting reviews is enough to make me want to dance, but right now it just doesn't give me that kind of giddiness.
Maybe it's because I have three painful and rather ugly rope burns on my left hand. Maybe it's because of all that laundry I'm going to have to handwash with aforementioned left hand (in conjunction with my right, obviously). Maybe it's because of that hacking cough that has developed into something mucus-filled.
My annoyance with the world has gotten so bad that not even buying a Mocha Frap and a huge slice of cake from good ol' Starbucks is making me happy. In fact, it only served to guilt me into thinking I'm getting fat again. Why can't I even enjoy that delicious slice of life?!?
I want to be a happy child again. Okay, scratch that - I don't even have to be a child. Being happy will do. I'll take anything. (Anything that won't require tranquilizers, hallucinogens, or alcohol, at least.)
ARGH. I just want to stop with these angst-filled rants. It's just not me.
...
Britney Spears, I can almost feel your pain.
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Argh. Argh. ARGH.
Jan. 28th, 2008 | 01:46 am
location: In limbo.
mood: 
sick
music: Dream Catcher by OLIVIA
Quite honestly, there is no shortage of reasons to bomb the institution that which nurtures us to be stressed, swamped, and totally "intoxicated" individuals.
Take my Communication 2 class, for example. Even as a Bio major, I've always thought that Communication would be my best class (seeing as I've misplaced myself and put myself in BS Biology). But it's like reality came crashing down on me - Comm2 is NOT my best class, it's my worst. Honestly - it even overtook Bio 115 (Plant Taxonomy) and Math 17 (dreaded Algebra and Geometry) in my Hated Subjects list. Which, really, is jaw-dropping in itself.
There are days when I feel like I love Comm2 - especially with the Anti-Plagiarism Campaign tomorrow. I drew most of the campaign materials based on a blockmate's slogans, and my prof said we had a "future in advertising." That was quite flattering. And when I feel like I'm getting somewhere with my paper, I feel like I could hug Comm2, if, you know, it were a tangible being.
But the love I feel for Comm2 is far overshadowed by my loathing of it. (And take note - "loathing," to me, is the deepest form of hatred.) Most days, I feel like I'm missing something in my outlines, or I've done something incredibly stupid with it, like making the same mistake twice. Add to the fact that I've scoured every library in the nation's capital (okay, not every library, but it certainly felt like it), well, let's just say I've spent more time, energy, and money for Comm2 than all my classes put together.
(Okay, again an exaggeration, but I don't feel like being accurate today.)
There are other things, too. Math 17 is an experience I really don't want to repeat, since I've repeated it enough already. One repeat is enough. And Taxonomy too. I love it, and all (surprise surprise), but it really does get in the way of a lot of things. It just adds to the amount of stress we've been dealing with.
Plus there's also the fact that the enrollment system is plain confusing, with so much acronyms littered along the way. It's annoying - the long lines, the going back-and-forth, and the fact that someone might grab that one precious slot in a cool subject with a great prof.
But really. Comm2 just takes the brunt of my loathing.
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In other news, I'm sick and tired, literally. I just came down with a fever (effectively eating into the time I could've spent -erlack- studying) and my headache's been going on and off since this morning. Add to the fact that I can't find my glasses so I won't be straining into my laptop, well, the day's just been really sucky.
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I'm also craving for a mango shake, at 2-freaking-AM.
Take my Communication 2 class, for example. Even as a Bio major, I've always thought that Communication would be my best class (seeing as I've misplaced myself and put myself in BS Biology). But it's like reality came crashing down on me - Comm2 is NOT my best class, it's my worst. Honestly - it even overtook Bio 115 (Plant Taxonomy) and Math 17 (dreaded Algebra and Geometry) in my Hated Subjects list. Which, really, is jaw-dropping in itself.
There are days when I feel like I love Comm2 - especially with the Anti-Plagiarism Campaign tomorrow. I drew most of the campaign materials based on a blockmate's slogans, and my prof said we had a "future in advertising." That was quite flattering. And when I feel like I'm getting somewhere with my paper, I feel like I could hug Comm2, if, you know, it were a tangible being.
But the love I feel for Comm2 is far overshadowed by my loathing of it. (And take note - "loathing," to me, is the deepest form of hatred.) Most days, I feel like I'm missing something in my outlines, or I've done something incredibly stupid with it, like making the same mistake twice. Add to the fact that I've scoured every library in the nation's capital (okay, not every library, but it certainly felt like it), well, let's just say I've spent more time, energy, and money for Comm2 than all my classes put together.
(Okay, again an exaggeration, but I don't feel like being accurate today.)
There are other things, too. Math 17 is an experience I really don't want to repeat, since I've repeated it enough already. One repeat is enough. And Taxonomy too. I love it, and all (surprise surprise), but it really does get in the way of a lot of things. It just adds to the amount of stress we've been dealing with.
Plus there's also the fact that the enrollment system is plain confusing, with so much acronyms littered along the way. It's annoying - the long lines, the going back-and-forth, and the fact that someone might grab that one precious slot in a cool subject with a great prof.
But really. Comm2 just takes the brunt of my loathing.
...
In other news, I'm sick and tired, literally. I just came down with a fever (effectively eating into the time I could've spent -erlack- studying) and my headache's been going on and off since this morning. Add to the fact that I can't find my glasses so I won't be straining into my laptop, well, the day's just been really sucky.
...
I'm also craving for a mango shake, at 2-freaking-AM.